THE BEAUTY BEHIND THE SUNSET 🌇

    If you were asked, how would you describe yourself? You may be like me wondering how to start this blog. Maybe I'm like you who haven't written anything yet because I'm not sure what the first word to put. Similar to one of my favorite song “Araw-Araw” by Ben and Ben. "Mahiwaga, pipiliin ka sa araw-araw" one of the lines of the song. What that line determines is that you choose your mahiwaga every day and that mahiwaga for me is none other than yourself, but the only sad thing is that you are still not sure if you will be able to choose yourself every day.

 

    I am Krisamae Raquepo, 15 years old who lives at Pangada Sta. Catalina, Ilocos Sur. The place where I live has a nearby sea where you can go at any time, you can be with your friends, family and people you want to be with especially around sunset. When it comes to sunsets, there isn't a day that I don't find them lovely and fascinating. I really enjoy photographing the sinking sun by the sea, enjoying as I look at the snap and occasionally thinking about it "Why does the sunset's beauty have to fade away? Why can't it just stay?" Then I realized that the sunset was similar to my personality in that, despite its beauty, it does not remain long and gradually fades away.

 

    It doesn't take long for me to be happy, sad, or beautiful, and it doesn't take long for the person who comes into my life to because they all leave and disappear, just like it doesn't take long for the sun to set. Just like the sunset, I am friendly now and then lazy to talk to people tomorrow; I am beautiful now because I tried to fix myself but later became ugly because I was too lazy to comb or take a bath; I am happy now because of those around me but gradually become sad when they leave; there are also people coming into my life who are gradually leaving; and there are days when I can't choose myself because I am afraid that I might choose myself, something will happen that I will find unpleasant.
 
    Sometimes, I'm still unsure about what I'm going to wear, whether I'll have coffee now or later, whether I'll shower now or later, and what course I'll take and what I want to be in the future. But, despite all of the things I wasn’t sure of, I realized that, in the end, I could still choose, that I could still answer all of the questions in my thoughts, and, most importantly, that I could still choose what I wanted based on my own will rather than the will of others.
 

    I thought at first, it was like I was experiencing something different from what others were experiencing, I thought it wasn't okay but then, I realized that it was perfectly normal and OK to feel and act in that way. It's alright to feel unhappy after being happy; it's acceptable to not always be attractive nor beautiful; it's okay to not always be productive; it's okay to have someone leave your life; and it's okay to choose yourself every day. Because that's how life is, they're all fine and normal. If you were asked, how would you describe yourself? Because I, I already know how to describe myself and I’m happy because I’m not afraid to introduce who I am.